i feel so lonely i've kind of living with my boyfriend just now monday to thursday and i dont see my family during that time or my friend coz there in the next town and its like 30mins on the train and i cant afford to go back and forward everyday. i really miss my big brother i dont think realises how much i miss him i cant talk to anybody and my bf goes to work everynight so i'm left in the house alone for hours.
Anyway i need to stop ranting i'm trying my first fast tommorow i have done a few before but i got better and i havent done one again so i'm just counting tommorws one as first one
Any tips?
SS.TT.
love you all
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Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: beyonce

heya how are you all doing,

its not really been a very good week for me. I hanen't been on for ages sorry its coz my bf will see the what i'm doing but he's not here  right now so i can come on i binged at lunch time today i had a roll soup and doriets ahhhhhhhhhh i dont know why i did it but i will do better tomorrow and the rest of the day i'm thinking about goingto the gym tommorw i havent been for ages 

Tomorrow this is my plan 

Breakfast:  bran flacks (a hand full) about 30cals 
Break: grapes and pinapple 43cals
Lunch: Salad (lettice, onion, carrots) 46cals
Dinner: Veg with chicken (green beans brocolli) 150cals
Drinks: Water and diet pepsi (or coke) 

Go to the gym and dont leave till i burn at least 500cals

SS.TT. love you all
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Current Mood: content

 heya today wasnt so good it was me and my boyfriends 1st annaverarry so usually i would eat like 2 rolls with spread cheese on it but today it was really horrible my body was not used to having a full meal. 

I had a burger with chips for my lunch but i could not finnish the chips coz i felt really sick and full. i was ok untill we had to go home and in the car home i was bingeing like mental i was eating bread sticks and lodz of crap anyway he had booked a table for us at this resteuant and we went in and ordered our food chris ordered a steak and i got the steak but it is done with cheese and i was really full still from lunch and i ate lodzz but i did think i was going to be sick so i went to the toilet and tryed to make myself sick but i could not  and i feel really shitty right now i'm fasting till monday night mabey tuesday morning coz i had all this food today but i dont know what to do on monday i've been on holiday from school so i could not have anything for lunch but now i'm back at school on manday it will be hell coz my friend will notice and i dont know what to do i think i'll only have a small soup 
well i'd better stop rambling on 
bye 
good luck think thin xx

heya today wasnt so good it was me and my boyfriends 1st annaverarry so usually i would eat like 2 rolls with spread cheese on it but today it was really horrible my body was not used to having a full meal. 

I had a burger with chips for my lunch but i could not finnish the chips coz i felt really sick and full. i was ok untill we had to go home and in the car home i was bingeing like mental i was eating bread sticks and lodz of crap anyway he had booked a table for us at this resteuant and we went in and ordered our food chris ordered a steak and i got the steak but it is done with cheese and i was really full still from lunch and i ate lodzz but i did think i was going to be sick so i went to the toilet and tryed to make myself sick but i could not  and i feel really shitty right now i'm fasting till monday night mabey tuesday morning coz i had all this food today but i dont know what to do on monday i've been on holiday from school so i could not have anything for lunch but now i'm back at school on manday it will be hell coz my friend will notice and i dont know what to do i think i'll only have a small soup 
well i'd better stop rambling on 
bye 
good luck think thin xx

Current Location: my boyfriends bedroom
Current Mood: worried
Current Music: none but i think i'll put on rent

so today i've been not to bad i've eaten to rolls with low fat spread cheese with has 30 calories in 47g so i weighted it it was all good and i was really happy with myself untill i went round to my boyfreinds house (who i will have been going out with for 1 year tomorrow) well anyway his mum and dad made me dinner and i told them that i wasnt hungary but they still gave me something to eat i dont really want to make things obvius because my boyfriends mum used to be anorexic so i think she'll know what i'm doing anyway i had i slice of pizza a boiled egg and 2 fish fingers annd i feel so bad i was doing so well today but me and chris (my boyfriend) are going on a date tomorrow and he is taking me out for a meal and i'm really scared he knows about my ED but i'm really scared to eat anything coz i wont know how many calories are in it  

hi everbody i dont really know how to do this kind of thing but hi anyway

heya i dont really know how to do this so if you want to message me feel free to do so 

wb xxx

hi dont really know how to do this so i'm just going to say hi to everybody